As someone who battled suicidal thoughts, the only thing that compelled me to stay on the Earth at times was the thought of hurting my family by leaving. In those days, that thought (and the love behind it) saved my life. Since then, my faith, awareness and mindfulness grew exponentially; I could catch the suicidal thoughts as thoughts before I chased them down the rabbit hole and began looking at actions to end my life.
This One, Precious Life
Give God the Remote
We keep trying to take the remote control back from God, from the natural order of the universe. We fluctuate between channels, changing from fear to love and back to fear again. We can’t possibly deal with the patience it takes to handle the channel of love, to sit with the unknown nature of living there, so we restlessly return to fear.
Befriending Feelings
When uncomfortable feelings come to visit like loneliness, sadness, grief or frustration, they are asking to be let in, known and felt. They want and need our attention, so we can experience the benefit of our feelings. They are arising, trying to be known, so they can show up, be felt and get the heck out of dodge (aka our bodies).