Discernment is a tool in our spiritual arsenal – one of the Holy Spirit gifts to us. It guides us to the will of God, which is to say the best possible outcome for us.
This year I choose blossom as my Word because it represents my intention to grow from the roots I planted as a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5) and build back what was broken through the vehicle of relationship.
It was the morning of the most important interview of my career; with emotions running haywire and hormones adding a dizzying effect, I decided that I just couldn't go to my interview that afternoon. The fear shouted so loudly that I couldn't hear the voice of wisdom that knew to show up despite the very big feelings. This was my dream job, after all!
God recently revealed to me that I am holding onto the weight of my past. By holding onto my past, I’m not only carrying around a weight I was never meant to carry, but I am blocking the blessings of God’s plan for me in the future. So today I ask you: What weight are you carrying that is hindering your upward momentum?
Covid-19 caught nearly all of us by surprise, leaving us ripped of our routines, schedules and normal circumstances — everything we typically rely on for stability and consistency. If we weren’t already prone to or struggling with depression, COVID-19 certainly stirred up prime circumstances for depression to show up (many of us without any prior experience with mental illness or the coping skills to deal with it in healthy ways).
We keep trying to take the remote control back from God, from the natural order of the universe. We fluctuate between channels, changing from fear to love and back to fear again. We can’t possibly deal with the patience it takes to handle the channel of love, to sit with the unknown nature of living there, so we restlessly return to fear.
When uncomfortable feelings come to visit like loneliness, sadness, grief or frustration, they are asking to be let in, known and felt. They want and need our attention, so we can experience the benefit of our feelings. They are arising, trying to be known, so they can show up, be felt and get the heck out of dodge (aka our bodies).
Faith, trust and expectation of God’s power, goodness and blessings surely sets the stage for miracles. By going it completely alone, we lose out on Divine access to endless support around us. It’s as if we are on the court playing against a team of opponents (let’s call them “life”) and we are trying to score. We could call in God and a team of Angels to assist us, but we may feel it’s entirely on our shoulders to get the ball in the basket.
I’m still mastering the art of self care. I always will be. It’s a lifelong lesson to love myself and put this practice in the forefront of my life. Today, I was lying down to take a break (self care win). I had three options for the evening: door 1: yoga, door 2: continue to rest and door 3: 12 step study at church.
Lying there, I asked myself which option I’d like to choose. My body said more rest but my mind said yoga. Even though yoga is something I never regret doing, oftentimes my body needs to rest (even more than I already had).
Even so, I rushed out of the house to get to yoga in time. Three minutes into my drive, I remembered this yoga class is on Monday and Wednesday. It was Tuesday. Not only did my body need to rest, but my mind needed a break too.
