Trust in Our Dreams

Have you ever sat in stillness to contemplate your dreams?

I have been on a wild journey of discovery that planted me right at the doorstep of my own dream: to serve others with the full expression of my true self—an intuitive healer and empowerment coach.

On a cool October evening, as I experienced the super moon eclipse from my outdoor yoga class, the instructor gave me a piece of advice: if a dream is placed on our heart, we are powerful enough to manifest it.

This nugget of wisdom empowered me to not only believe in the validity of my dreams but to turn them into my reality. The simple belief that I can live the life I imagine gave my soul permission to seek my spiritual truth—the divine essence I embody.

Within several months, when the magic of the Christmas season was stirring my heart, I came to realize that I had finally returned to my Divine essence. My true nature as a Divine spiritual being of love was revealed. It was as simple (and yet complex) as that. I am to realize that by trying to please everyone in my life and gain love and acceptance outside of myself, I had compromised everything I was truly about; I am a deeply spiritual person with a faith that runs through every vein leading straight to my heart.

A Return to Love

Returning to a state of love took devastating loss in order to break open my heart to reveal the fullness I longed to express. It took feeling every dark emotion that lingered in my broken and hopeless heart. It took saying yes to a difficult and gut-wrenching journey to learn why I made the decisions that took me down a path that far from honored my true self. I spent so much time attempting to gain love and acceptance that I barely knew who I was and what I stood for any longer. Yet, my soul never forgot—I heard its whispers, but I chose to quiet them in favor of comfort and safety.

My despair and desperation led me to embark on a spiritual journey of self discovery. I believe challenges and missteps are our greatest teaches and catalysts of growth. Had I not chosen to visit and ultimately heal the broken nature of my heart and spirit, I am certain I would not be writing this piece from my heart.

I know the agony, pain, endless work and investment of a spiritual journey, but I also know the intense suffering caused by choosing fear over the path of love. It is my deepest belief that we are here to end our human suffering by returning to a state of love (and then living wholeheartedly in our revealed truth).

Our purpose is to express and extend our divinity (the light within us) through the highest expression of ourselves.

– Rebecca Rosen

Throughout my studies of Yoga, Buddhism and Kaballah (Jewish Mysticism), I have gleaned one universal truth: we are here to end human suffering by reclaiming our light—the light of our soul—that took human form in our body. If we can find the light within us that has lied dormant since childhood, we can return to our Divine essence. It is from this place that we find our purpose, from our heart space, and ultimately find Heaven on Earth.

We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

– Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

If this end to suffering seems wildly out of reach, it is. However, I am proof that it is completely possible if you put in the work. What I found by returning to my true soul's nature is limitlessness, true happiness and lasting peace.

It wasn't until I accepted my soul whispering for more fulfillment in life and awakened to my essence that I discovered my own purpose. My long-lived desire to have a more meaningful career was born out of my separation from my purpose. I yearned to serve humanity in a more direct and impactful way, yet until I accepted a path of spiritual growth to reveal my own light, I could not serve others in the manner I desired.

My purpose grew out of my revealed light effortlessly, as the Universe conspired to lead me on a path of synchronicity and Divine intervention. When we begin to discover our essence and agree to reveal our true selves to the world, we will be catapulted on a wild journey of full support for our intention to honor our soul (which in turn creates more harmony in the Universe).

Behind Every Fight is Light

Every experience, misstep, tragedy, situation or loss serves a larger purpose of growth if we accept the blessing behind each struggle. If we accept an attitude of gratitude for what occurs and search for the gifts behind these "redirections," we turn adversity into our biggest blessing and teacher.

As I agreed to a life of fulfillment and chose a path of love, my gratitude turned my past into the foundation for my purpose. I endured intense suffering (human experience) in health and heartbreak in order to blossom into my essence—as an intuitive healer and spiritual coach. My health battles were necessary "education" to step into my understanding of healing on a mind, body and heart level. My heartbreak was the gateway to awakening my deeply spiritual nature—one that has led me to a transcendent connection with Spirit in the form of Angels (both guardian and Archangels).

The clarity in my heart now recognizes that my human suffering became the classroom that allowed me to graduate to my soul nature, one that can see the beauty of life when our light is ignited and we reclaim our wings. As I trusted my ability to fly and began to own who I truly am, my resilience and faith paid dividends in miracles. Each courageous step led to where I needed to be to fulfill my dreams.

Answer the Call

By answering our soul's calling, we plant a seed in our heart that says we are worth living our best life. Our dreams may seem unreachable or even far-fetched in our limited mind, but once we allow the truth in our heart to be known, we surpass any self-perceived road blocks placed by fear.

The first step to manifesting our dreams is to believe we are powerful enough to manifest them. We must believe in ourselves EVERY step of the way.

The joy in my heart as I begin to fulfill my purpose is unfathomable—I still find myself laughing while I question, "Is this real life?" But even as I step further into developing my gifts and return to school, I suffer from bouts of self-defeating thoughts. My mind recalls all too clearly my undergraduate experience (one that was plagued by poor health and crippling anxiety). As I sat with my fears and acknowledged them, I began to believe that I am equipped with a newfound sense of wellbeing in mind, body and spirit. And I am strong enough to see my dreams through; after all, I know for certain I wouldn't be called into this purpose without the strength to endure any challenges it presents.

During my morning meditation with intuitive counselor, Kari Samuels, I received the reassurance my soul craved; my measure of success has nothing to do with performance in school, gaining more certifications and launching my business. I measure success by the amount of joy and passion pulsing through my heart. This happens when I am expressing my true essence—as a writer, poet, healer and coach. This is how I know I am fulfilling my purpose. I have the Divine privilege to use my God-given gifts to serve others through my true expression of self.

Be True to You

We do not need to be living the full expression of our dreams to embody a feeling of success or to feel joyful and fulfilled.

Don’t look for your dreams to become true; look to become true to your dreams.

– Michael Bernard Beckwith

We do, however, need to express our full Divinity as light-filled souls to manifest the unfolding of our dreams by taking faithful action daily. If we live and love with the passion that pulsates through our being, we give ourselves permission to be our truest selves.

How we live, love and treat others creates the tapestry of our soul nature. I find that in order to fully express our nature, we may need to step into a life that honors our very essence.

So, contemplate your dreams. Set forth intentions that will ultimately determine your future. Choose to reach for the moon and listen to your heart; admit the dreams lingering within its walls.

The Universe is waiting to answer our call so long as we believe in our power to manifest them.

Send in your "order form" by writing your truest intentions and dreams on paper (or repeating them in your mind). Whether we seek our true essence, a fulfilling path or higher love, make sure to honor these intentions today (and every day).

And repeat:

I am powerful beyond measure. I trust the Universe. I trust in Spirit. I trust myself. I trust my purpose. I am supported. I am light.

I invite you on a journey to align with your soul's purpose and answer the call to live through your heart.

I am Human—My Yoga Journey

Yoga is my everything. And Yoga for Humans is spreading the word on the humanity behind yoga. I love how they portray the imperfections behind the practice, simply because yoga is not about perfection at all. It took me years to get on my mat again after three attempted classes circa 2009 frightened the living daylight out of me; my body said we aren’t having this. Not one bit.

But something told me to try again, so when I moved to Arizona in 2013 I dedicated my heart to the mat. It was extremely difficult and even painful at times. I fought through the magic in my body stemming from spinal fusion. I loathed downward dog (and let’s not even talk about any one of the hip opening poses). My hips carried so much garbage that they screamed at me to stop the torture.

But I didn’t give up, and two years into my regular practice I stumbled upon my groove (with the help of dear teachers), and my body began to work with me through slow but steady improvements. I devoted more time and energy on my mat and the investment in myself started to pay incredible rewards in mind, body and spirit.

Yoga changed my life, and it can change yours if you allow yourself the determination and patience. I still have magic in my body after three years of practice (we all do), but what matters is how far I’ve come. And I encourage you to start exactly where you are.

This practice transcends every imagined possibility and brings about a level of consciousness that affects every aspect of your life. Yoga fills your heart with so much love and joy that it bleeds into the way you live, love, work and play.

Thank you Yoga for Humans for portraying my most graceful moment while playing on the beach.

And an exuberant amount of gratitude for my teachers Jenn Chiarelli, Chloe Olivia Littzen, Kristin Bullock, Eleanor Bramwell, Lisa Groves and Anton Holmes Mackey and your endless inspiration, light and love. Namaste.

My Epoch

I was served a very important lesson this week after I was struck by a very nasty and painful bug that rendered me weak and vulnerable.

As I fought many self-defeating thoughts that trickled in as the pain set in deeper, I remained calm and centered with self-guided meditation and detoxifying salt baths. I couldn't help but think this day of misery served an underlying purpose.

This week marks my departure from my full time job and the beginning of my journey as an intuitive healer and coach. I am certain the anxiety of such a drastic change in my path is part of the culprit for my body's painful process.

Our body senses energy (and the anxiety around that energy) before our conscious mind can. And so, with my transition came fears of the unknown as I chart new territory. Although my heart knows this is my path of higher purpose and fulfillment through service, the body and mind are intrinsically connected. My mind alerted my body of the impending changes before my heart could speak up.

As I awoke the next day feeling rested and renewed, I headed to my Naturopath's office for a checkup and acupuncture treatment (with the intention to restore balance and align my energy systems in my body). After having quite a spiritual conversation with her about my path and progress, I saw that every step I have taken has been for my highest purpose (even if I suffered in the short term for it). 

I have focused heavily on cleansing my body and detoxing for the past month in order to be a pure conduit of energy and love for my next chapter (fulfilling the purpose God has called me forth into). I rid my body of toxins and mind-altering substances which I feel has only brought me closer to the path I'm seeking. The purity of love and positivity I embody and exude has literally changed my health as my body responds to the higher vibration of energy in and around me.

My doctor responded to this change in me and affirmed my path to higher well being and health. I have been on quite a journey to practice self care and attain healing in my mind and body; I went on a rollercoaster ride of neutralizing my self-defeating and fearful thoughts to changing my lifestyle to seeking a deeper connection to my truth and heart. I found a sense oneness within me that is connected to a higher source of energy and love. 

As I pondered how far I have come, I couldn't help but embrace an attitude of gratitude for the blessings of my path and intentions. I could even be grateful for a day of utter pain because it taught me patience and kindness toward myself and allowed me to engage in higher forms of healing through meditation and energy treatments.

Every experience holds a blessing: I accessed high forms of energy healing so I may return to the conduit of Divine love I will serve as an energy healer and coach; I was able to surrender to whatever is trying to work through me (even if that means allowing my body to purge and rest). Finally, I am reminded to always flow with the river of life. Everything serves a purpose if we allow the universe to work with us (in love) rather than against us.

So, as I face a week filled with major life transitions, I encountered a license plate with the word EPOCH: the beginning of a distinctive period of history in a person's life. That I am stepping forward into an era that I have never known is an exciting yet terrifying thing. 

This epoch is defined by my journey to answer my higher calling and accept my deeper truth. My body feels my fear subconsciously even if I choose not to succumb to everyday fear and anxiety. Knowing this, I cannot help but be patient and gentle with myself. 

I see how this experience is really just a valley I am reaching on my climb to the mountain. I saw the top of the peak when I accepted this journey and announced my leave, but I feel the immense pressure now that I am leaving my job. I know this is just a minor valley in my climb. I had a heartfelt message come through the radio that lifted me up on my path: 

We aren't meant to go through this life alone. We go through peaks then back through valleys to learn to trust in God and the bigger picture, so we come out stronger in faith.

Clearly my faith took a hit momentarily, but it will never be depleted so much that I lose sight of the purpose within my journey. I know for sure these three things: I am not alone, I have support and I will succeed in delivering my gifts to this world.

For now I'm going to love my body though these changes and give it every boost I can. I am worth it.